New name, new look, a work in progress

It felt like it was time for a change, so here is that change. Clearly I need help with design, because lets face it, I suck at that stuff, well I suck at computer stuff in general. I started writing in this blog over a year ago, and I had no idea what I was doing. Guess what, I still have no idea what I'm doing but I feel like I need to keep writing.

When I started this blog, I was really learning so much about myself, I'm pretty sure I had no idea who I was, or what my purpose is. I now have a much better handle on who I am, still not really sure what my purpose is, but I'm okay with that. So many things have happened, life has been crazy, and fun, and sad, and hard. But isn't that just like life, ups and downs, something new at every turn, so monotonous, and so much unexpected all at the same time. Through it all, one thing I'm learning is that it is what I make it, that if I just change the way I look at things, the outcome also changes. Okay, so maybe the outcome doesn't always change, but how I feel about the outcome does!

Example: The other day, the kids stayed home from school, so we made it a craft day. If you know me, you know that I don't enjoy crafts, or anything that's makes a mess. I was so tense the entire time, the paint was on the floors, the clay was stuck in the chair cushions, the rainbow loom bands were, well they were everywhere. I left the room, because I just couldn't handle the mess it was making. I sat and listened to the laughing and giggles, the kids playing together, having fun, and enjoying each others company. I couldn't enjoy it because I couldn't get past the mess, so I go in barking orders to clean it all up, every piece, and don't miss a spot. Later, I went in and saw this big beautifully ugly blob of clay with about 20 crayons sticking out of it. I laugh, alone, in the now clean dining room, I sit and laugh, then I stop. I realize I missed out, now I'm alone and laughing, I totally missed the opportunity to share joy with my children, to receive joy from my children. If I could have just changed the way I saw what was happening in the dining room, the outcome surely would have been different. If I could have stopped in that moment and seen the love, and joy, I could have been a part of it!

Check, another lesson learned!

Starting fresh I really want to make a request, that if you ever read my blog, that you comment, share, make suggestions, join in conversation, follow me... I would love to hear your stories, I would love to hear your suggestions, so please help me with this. If this blog site isn't easy to maneuver, tell me, if you want to hear about something, tell me, if you want to share a story or a recipe, tell me. We are all in the life thing together, and we all need, help, we all need support, we all share laughter and tears and all it brings. I hope to hear from you!