Have I done enough?
This is the question that is flooding my mind these past few days. As I prepare to send my first child to kindergarten, I wonder about all the things I should have/could have done different. I'm going to assume that it's better to be asking this question, "have I done enough" now, as opposed to when he leaves for college. The question encompasses about a hundred other questions that I ask myself about my parenting.
I've always believed and known that each child is a precious gift, but up until recently I think I may have taken their lives for granted a bit. I haven't taken the time to remember that each life is such a miracle, and now that I've been reminded of this I want to embrace the miracles I have!
So now with one leaving me, I can't help but replay the past five years and wonder if I've done enough, if I've loved enough, hugged enough, played enough, laughed enough... I certainly can't turn back time, and don't really wish to, but I can be sure that while I may not have done enough in the past, I will do my best to do enough now. Loving each moment, laughing at every chance, hugging whenever arms are open, and making sure my babies know that they are a gift that I will celebrate daily!
Are we doing enough as parents, or are we so busy with life that we have forgotten how precious these gifts are?
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No Joke, I was just crying over this last week! These past 8 months have been the biggest emotional roller coaster for me and in my wide ride, I took the focus off them a little bit. I started to realize this the other night when little Harry came to sleep with me and I had him in my arms and I had a hard time remembering when I did that last with him. Thank you for posting this. I have been having over whelming anxiety too about not doing enough before school starts. In these moments, I have to look back and be proud of the accomplishments that were made and not dwell on what was not done. This is all a learning experience. We are going to learn till the day they become parents of their own and then we have to think " are we doing enough for our grand children?" I just have to keep asking GOD for his strength and his presence and guide me to try to make the best decisions I can make for them and for us as a family. You guys do amazing with the kids. Defiantly role models. Have a great Holiday weekend :)
ReplyDeleteLove your honesty in your comments! That's what it's all about, doing this together, learning, growing, sharing... You're doing an awesome job, being a parent is so hard. I'm not sure why we thought it would be so easy, HA!
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